Alright, so I dont really have trust issues I dont think. AND I finally realize why I was so unhappy with Jordan. Like the whole time I was with him- from day one...I was just forcing myself to be happy with him, becasue with all honesty- he is a very awezome guy. But I now realize that even tho he WAS a nice guy- he just wasnt the type of guy for me. I dont understand why I couldnt just figure that out. Its so obvious! I mean...like he is REALLY annoying ever since i decided to stop faking it! Like...his voice, and the way he talks, and the things he talks about are just so gayish soo much of the time! I hateee it!
Anyway- the new news- I like a new guy :) He is perfect. I know I have said that about guys before- but like...When I think about him I just am happy and totally content. I smile to myself about him every time I see him or hear his name or think about him. I know he is finally like a good guy to like becasue he has what i have ALWAYS said I want sooo much- which is he reminds me of my papa! :) So very much actually! He has his eyes- not only in color- but in the way he looks at me...with a look like- "Yes, I know your crazy, but I adore ya anyways!" haha. and he also has his personality- like sewwt and quiet- and manly and funny, and has a good laugh and smile :) He just brings me the happiness my papa does. He also is just sooo funny in his own way-in a quiet way, but so cute :) haha We are just friends for right now. I think he likes me- and I know I like him. But I dont wat to date him- not yet. not anytime in the near future even. I would however like to start hanging out with him more and maybe even go to the winter formal with him. I have never been so comfortable around a guy- or so happy and myself. Its great! Im soo happy just being with him- even jsut being friends :) I really hope we are always just great friends and that our friendship just continues to be made stronger and closer- even if it never reaches a romantic level. I thank God for him :)